OMG I having the worst week of my life!! It all started with my childs father getting evicted from the apartment we were suposed to move into with the baby LEAVING US HOMELESS!!! He didnt even tell me what was going on until the last mintue. IM SO PISSED AND FURIOUS. I dont know what to do! I found this really shitty room for rent in the midle of what we call "the hood". Its so bad and nasty and has roches and holes in the wall and I can barely sleep. The bathrooms looks like something out of a horror movie. and the people or even scarier. Im so afraid someone will bust into our room or even steal my car. And im sure you can imagine how rough this being 36 weeks pregnant and can hardly sleep already. On top of this im the only one working and thats not saying much since I have so much stuff to pay for with the baby coming. To make matters worse he wants to stay there even tho I don't. I cried myself to sleep last night because the place is so horriable and I can't imagine ever bringing my child into such a situation. I can go stay with my mother but she has a tiny apartment with three people already living there. plus she HATES my childs father andand would even let him come over to see the baby. And I don't want him to not see his own son. I just don't know what to do.  I don't have a lot of money and this baby is coming ANYTIME now! Im sorry to lay this all out here but I really just need some encouraging words to help me thur all this. I feel so alone. All my family members just keep reminding me how bad the area is and how i can't stay there and how I need to leave my childs father not helping the situation at all. Its becoming to much I can't stop crying. This is all such a disaster.

ON A GOOD NOTE

My baby is doing good. he is way head down. im still just 1cm but now im 80% effaced. My doc says im doing wonderful.

Oh, what an awful situation!  I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this, especially so close to your delivery.  Unfortunately, sometimes things happen for a reason, and perhaps this is a realization of what life might be like with your baby's father.  I know firsthand that it's not easy, but sometimes things work out even better in the long run.

When I was pregnant with my first (at 19), my parents had let my boyfriend move into our house because he had a really crappy place to live, etc.  However, about 2 1/2 months before I had her, he decided he needed an apartment of his own.  Looking back, it's definitley odd to me that he would pick that time to move out.  Anyhow, he did, and the night before I was induced, he was actually out at a club dancing with other women (which I found out several months later).  In his spare time, he was picking up other women so of course he wanted his own place because he couldn't bring them home to my parents' house.  When my daughter was about 5 months old, we broke it off once most of this information came to light.  It was extremely hard at the time, and I'm not gonna lie - I spent a lot of time crying and being depressed.

However, now to the good part - I met my husband when my daughter was just over 1.  He immediately fell in love with both her and me.  This November, we will celebrate 12 years of marriage.  He adopted my daughter, and we subsequently had 2 more daughters and are now expecting our final baby.

I tell you this only to say that things CAN work out, but it just may not be the way you planned.  After my daughter's father was out of the picture, I swore I was done and that I would raise her alone.  I will also say that without my parents, I don't know how I would have made it through.  I think the safest thing is for you to move in with your mother, unless you can manage to get yourself a decent place on your own.  From your post, it sounds like you know deep down that you and your baby can't possibly stay in this "hood" apartment that you've found.  Maybe your boyfriend will come through and prove that he deserves to be in both of your lives, but maybe he won't.  Either way, you CAN and WILL make it through it.

Good luck, and God bless!!!

Doris your a true hero!Listening to your story brought tears to my eyes!You overcame alot in life you should be soooooooooooooo proud of your self!As for ddmm9 i say daddy didn,t think about you and baby enough or this would not have happened.You and your baby should not suffer the concequencese of this ,especailly now when you need all hands o board and as much help as possiable!Go home to mum,at least there the no cocroach enviroment will make your firty mum days a lil less stressful...in the meantime tell Pappa Bear to get he,s act tzogether and find you guys your own lil spot to live...we all make mistakes...and we all learn,i,m sure he,s feeling real bad all this happened so this will be a way for him to make amense...Don,t stress and take care...great that baby is doin good...focus on the good in your life...cause  some probs we can fix...those are the easy ones...but the hard ones are the ones we can,t!:So hang in there ,i,m sure all will go well!!!!!